I easily lose perspective- especially if I dont get enough sleep
Haven’t updated the blog in a while- keep telling myself its for good reason- but this goes on- whats the good reason? Once I had my premiere for Subjective Expressions in Honolulu- then Hilo- I completely disconnected myself from the film.. I’ve worked non-stop on it for over a year.. Conceptualized it in June 2010- and started filming February 2011. Finally showing it to an audience in October was the closure for me. Many requested to have a DVD- no one has received anything.. Have not emailed a single person about it or anything to do with the film..
Its been quite difficult- Its so funny how this is the film I get an opportunity to share.. At times I wish it could be my next projects I’m excited for, because I’m not so happy with the project- however.. I wouldn’t be where I am if I hadn’t gotten this chance- so never mind.
Struggle- a constant struggle to catch up. Always editing projects- stuff from months ago- or a few days ago.. Sometimes I just want to scream and go live in the wilderness.. Like I said- I lose perspective easily. Many stories to share- I’m slowly coming back to my old reality. For now here are some videos I never put up which I made in the past few months:
Last moments of the festival- with the awesome Luke Griswold-Tergis (director of “smokin fish”!)
I’ll see you all soon <3
right now I’m enjoying the many splendors of the Hawaii International Film Festival on Oahu. Meeting many filmmakers, some heroes (such as Michael Giacchino who I shared a car with) and enthusiastic film lovers. Its been great! My film now approaches its premiere in 4 days
All I can do is reflect on how I got here
why am I here? I don’t know
but how I got here I do know
Back in 2010 I spent 7 months in Europe writing the script to the film
I uploaded this video to show my film style and hope to fundraise some money with it:
Managed to get some funds- and returned to Hawaii in November- 2010
With the newly found courage and support I had from my online network- I decided to try and raise even more money for the film. Why not make a conceptual trailer to show what the film may look like? The previous video merely was a montage of my previous films- so I spent 2 months shooting tests for the film that resulted into this trailer:
it was truly a fun experience making the tests- but as I finished the final script it became clear to me that some of the focus in the trailer would actually be cut from the final story (such as the wild man performance- my favorite bit)
I spent the following 5 months shooting the actual film- Although it was a span of 5 months- it was about 10 days total- but stretched over that time due to scheduling limitations.
The result was a trailer of the ACTUAL film footage:
Happy to say that the whole film process has been a huge success. I walk with the same equipment and backpack I did a year ago when I was in the writing process- now I carry the film in a tiny hard drive. This whole journey now existing digitally in this small box.. Only to be relived soon in an actual movie theater (where I saw Tron last year )
what a dream?
Another story to share- for whoever may read.. In 2009 I made a short film for an online contest judged by my hero, Terry Gilliam. He gave me 2nd place- and sent a personal drawing and small note. It said “Keep making films, you’re good”. It meant a lot to me- and pushed me to pursue my dreams. Gilliam played his film, The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus, HERE at the Hawaii International Film Festival!
Not only did Gilliam influence my film- but his film played a major part in it. So if anything- I’m grateful to observe my result of inspiration from his work in the same movie theater. Thanks Mr. Gilliam
still lots of movie to watch- must promote the film like crazy now
Love to you all
Film started shooting in February- now its premiering WHERE IT WAS SHOT this October 30th 6pm HILO PALACE THEATER
Officially premiering at HIFF 2011!
Check out the information- latest trailer and poster!!
Big show coming up
prepare to be healed
2nd cut almost done
big big news coming soon
trying to stay on track
how to pace oneself?
A journey alone
or with many
I love you all